Drifting between Darkness and Light

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I'm conscious sometimes and I'm not 
Certain of events but also full of doubt
I know the right thing to do but I shove that
Before anyone can stop me, the profanities spill from my mouth 

I speak of the desires of demons 
The thoughts that crawl up from the abyss 
I wish I didn't like what they told me to say 
But it contains everything I don't want to miss

Lucky for me, the angels also whisper their secrets 
I often zone out but sometimes I pay attention 
I don't like what they cause they scare even me
But I can't deny that I always learn my lesson 

  - KIDD🍷

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